I have never felt as
beautiful in my life as I do now. Not that I have lost weight or that my
complexion has improved or have suddenly added something great to my wardrobe,
but that I have grown to understand that this is me.
This is me- the
imperfect me. The unchangeable and the incorrigible me.
I know that I have made mistakes and accept now that I am never going stop making more (or repeating them, probably to be sure). I have accepted the fact that I am curvy and at the wrong places too, and that I am never gonna be like those skinny models who forcibly flash on your screen before YouTube let's u watch a video.
I know that I have made mistakes and accept now that I am never going stop making more (or repeating them, probably to be sure). I have accepted the fact that I am curvy and at the wrong places too, and that I am never gonna be like those skinny models who forcibly flash on your screen before YouTube let's u watch a video.
My wrinkles have
engraved their signatures deep around my eyes before I could ever know which
cream I should have used to avoid them in the first place. These are not scars
but the memories of how many chances I have missed to feel beautiful when I
could.
I know am growing ugly
but this process is so beautifying. I know I am growing old but this phase is
so strengthening. I know am losing all the shine but my life has never been so
lustrously humor filled ever.
This process could
have started with naive systems and may have a horrifying end but this is
carving a permanent mark of nothing but sheer awesomeness in my persona.
Beauty is not a physical
feature. Beauty is a realisation. Beauty is awareness of your ‘humanhood’ (I
meant womanhood). Not in terms of just your body or relations like that of
daughter/sister/wife or so call it quite like the Matrix theory...when you
realize you haven't been living in a real world and suddenly you are a part of
it! How do you explain that sudden realization!
As a girl,u r used to
receiving stares on the road. And I must say that I had never been so much
noticed as I am now. Probably I have just started to learn to notice myself now!
P.S. 30 is a beautiful number..